Actually, i am half drunk for no particular reason... i am not sad, i am not depressed... i am actually happy... i am at this stage again when i realised my life is almost perfect.... so close... almost...
I got everything a gurl can ever dream of... a good paying part time job, a secure full time job awaiting after i finish study... i am doing well in my post graduate studies... i got friends who wants to spend time with me... i got my family who loves me... and i have a wonderful guy who loves me and forever will... in his own way... what more can a gurl want???
I almost have my happy ending...
But... i realised why i havent got my happy ending just yet...
I guess i am not ready to have a happy ending yet... for some unknown reason, i think dont deserve my happy ending yet... maybe i have done enough damage to people i love in the past, that i think my punishment is not yet finish...
Anyways... i am rambling now...
my point is... I am in love... with a guy who is in love with me...
we talked about our future home
our future dogs and cats
and our kids... our kids will be georgeous...
I am in love with a guy i fell in love with ten years ago
Who, at 19 yrs old, knew he will make me his wife
Who has seen the worst of me
And still love me anyways
I am in love with a guy i have been trying to get over
Who has been trying to get over me
Who was trying to be with others
Who kept on coming back to me
I am in love with a guy who has always been there for me
Who has failed me in so many levels
Yet has come through for me in many more levels
Our story deserve a medal
We made the perfect failed romance story
We tried and tried and tried
We changed who we were for each other
We gave up our dreams for each other
Didnt work...
We moved on
We started living for ourselves
We became cynics
But we never left each other
We loved each other through the distance
Through the pains
Through our new partners
Through it all
we still come home to each other
When i thought he has moved on
He came back to me
Over and over again
He came back to me
After all the years
The whole ten years
Of loving each other
Of hurting each other
Of longing for each other
Of hating each other
A weird mysterious forces of the universe happened
We missed our flights
and
we fell in love
again....
After all these
i now truly believe
no matter what happens
We are the stuff of legend
